~ஜ۩۞۩ஜ Allev.G ஜ۩۞۩ஜ ~

I will begin my internship tomorrow!!! So nervous.... T.T
What should I do!!!!
*Nervous Mode SERIOUSLY ON!!!!

As much as I love designing and sewing, I'm not confident with my ability. So nervous about tomorrow. The designer I'll interning at, is a known one. He is known for his work, AND HIS STRICTNESS... *cry*
I'm afraid that my skill not good enough for him. I'm afraid that there's a possibility that I'll make my principal who recommended me and my friend to him disappointed in me....

Argh... So nervous....
I wish i could snatch some non-nervous extract (if such things exist) from the 5 bakas, since I think I'll do better if I'm not this nervous.

Ah... How frustrating..

These days, whenever I saw a pic about Japan... I feel sad. I love almost all about Japan, from the food, to the language (which i fail at), and to the boys *coughArashicough*. I want to experience living in Japan. It's kinda impossible though. Moreover, my ability in Japanese language is super duper big bold NG. I want to learn it properly, though.

The weird thing is.... The way I feel is kinda like as if I've been there, and I'm reminiscing my days at Japan, and I want to go back. Which is totally not true, since I never get a chance to go there.

Maybe I watch J-dorama way too much... or maybe (start imagining things) I was destined to live there, and meet 5 baka boys, named Arashi, preferably work with them as their dresser or costume designer...

Ok I'll stop daydreaming (or nightdreaming, since it's nighttime here), and sharpening my skill as a fashion designer wannabe and who knows I get to work with JE someday....

Yoshhh!!! time to sleep now (eh? what happened to skill-sharpening-thingy?) LOL

So... Ada yang nonton Miss Indonesia juga?
Gimana menurut kalian?
Kalo kamu dapat kesempatan untuk jadi Miss Indonesia, apa yang akan kamu lakukan? Untuk Indonesia? Untuk Dunia? (Untuk Arashi) :p
Aku? Tell ya later... :p

writing mode: on :p

Currently, I am a resident of MatsuJun City, ArashiLand. Well, I visit other cities in ArashiLand every now and then, as well as loving the sights of Sho Town and Ohno Village, but until now I'm still a loyal resident of MatsuJun City. :p

I've been 'seriously' fangirling over Arashi for about 5-6 months now... I've heard about them and watch some of their doramas several times before, but I didn't take the time to 'properly' drool over them until one of my friend (a resident of ShoTown) give me the chance... * I made my friend looks/sounds really bad LOL

One of the reason I like about being a fan of Arashi is they lift me up when I'm down with their songs, shows, performance, and of course their unbelievable stupidity. Sometimes I even want to ask them, "don't you realize that you're an idol? don't you realize that what you did was way beyond idiot?"  I don't want them to change, though... LOL

Most of my classmates know that I'm an Arashi fangirl by now, and influence several of them to listen to Arashi songs. I even succeed in taking one of them to join me in ArashiLand.

But one thing has been bugging me for a while, one of my classmate is using Arashi as a 'weapon' to befriend me. Well, I don't mind her liking Arashi, if that's true. And I don't mind being a friend with her, she is a good person and very talented. But she is kind of manipulative, and has a history of having a NEW bestfriend in an instant every so often. And she is currently in war against her ex-bestfriend because of a problem unknown to me. I hate people using what I like to get me to do what they want. I really want to scream to her ear, "DON'T LAY YOUR DIRTY HANDS ON ARASHI, DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT INCLUDING ARASHI IN YOUR DIRTY PLAN" (Ooshima Miyuki mode: on) LOL

Gosh, what should I do.. I really hate avoiding people in an obvious way. But she didn't get my not-so-subtle hints that I don't want to be her next bestfriend. I don't even comfortable with people like her who casually drop in my house, enter my room and didn't realize that it annoy me to the max.

BREAKING NEWS!! one of my friend is getting married in 2 weeks, and I heard that one of my classmates from elementary school had 2 kids already. We're still 23 y.o. for crying out loud..... T.T

Persahabatan bagai kepompong                                              Friendship is like a chrysalis
Mengubah ulat menjadi kupu-kupu                                         Turning caterpillar to butterfly
Persahabatan bagai kepompong                                             Friendship is like a chrysalis
Hal yang tak mudah berubah jadi indah                                 Turning hardship to beauty
Persahabatan bagai kepompong                                             Friendship is like a chrysalis
Maklumi teman Hadapi perbedaan                                        Tolerating friends, facing differences
Persahabatan bagai kepompong                                            Friendship is like a chrysalis
na..na..na..na..na..na                                                         na..na..na..na..na..na

Sind3ntosca - Kepompong 

This song is surely not one of those superbly beautiful poetic song. But it's kinda deep and meaningful in its own way. The artist, Sind3ntosca consist of only one person taking charge of things from song writing, composing, to designing website. 

"sind3ntosca is a "rare" independent band from Bandung, West Java, Indonesia. Has only 1 personel named Jalu, who's songwriting, composing, arranging, mixing, engineering, designing, web constructing, CD producing, 3D animating, making video clips, and much more by himself ...and also mini marketing and managing, and do all the net surfing... pathetic! :p It's a blue and green mixed genre, with it's own special feature of liquid lyric called SUNDACELTIC."
taken from http://www.jamendo.com/en/artist/sind3ntosca

Well.. it's currently my "not so favorite but i keep on singing it" song. And i feel like writing about it. So.. that's it for now. Maybe I'll write again later this night. I was going to write a lot in this post. But I am watching one of my fave show on TransTV, Extravaganza. So there's no way I could concentrate. :p 

Enjoy.... :p

Welcome to my life.

This is me. I like writing but I could go on ages without writing anything. My 'masterpieces' are mainly random words linked together. I mainly used English and (of course) Indonesian in my writing. Though sometimes I write in Chinese.

I suggest everyone that unfortunately navigated to this page not to expect any entries from me. When I'm in the mood for writing. I could write like crazy. At times, I could write several poems, short stories, or even a long one. But when the mood evaporate to thin air, I could also go on ages without writing even a very short poems. 

Well.... Welcome to my life. Take your seat and enjoy the show.